I have a dream

Okay so you may have caught me in a little fib, I have MANY dreams, however I've had the opportunity to attend a retreat in DC this weekend called Dream Year Weekend it's part of Ben Arment's bigger Dream Year process, this has been an exciting weekend for me as I have realized that every single one of my dreams are obtainable, and in the words of Ben Arment, "Your dreams are waiting for YOU!"

I've known for a while that my dreams are waiting for me, and I have been working hard in achieving them, but there's been a "dream" God has been stirring in my heart for a while, one that I haven't really shared with the world until this past week, one that scares the bejebus (I don't even know if that's a word!) out of me! One that literally three weeks ago I felt like God was telling me it was time to pursue it, my response, "Really God in the middle of all the other crazy transitions, right now?" and His response YES!!!!

Yesterday as I got to Dream Year and people started asking me about my dream, the words that came out of my mouth, were not what I expected would be the dream I would want to focus on this weekend, however as God has taken me on a healing journey over the past few months of my own life, and the fact that my story has been instrumental in changing the life of a girl I met just a few short weeks ago, I have realized that this dream among all the others stirring in my heart, is one that can change not only my life, but the lives of others.

So today as I shared my dream with Ben I realized that God has birthed this dream in my heart, and Ben confirmed that as he spoke about all of us having a history with our dream, so you might ask, what is that dream?

Well along with everything else God has me doing right now, I would also like to become a motivational speaker, inspiring young women to find the value in the Lord and not the world, while my long term goal is to find my own platform, find my own place, I would like to make it the Revolve Tour stage, I would like to share with 1,000 of girls my story and how I went from finding my value in the world, to finding my value in the Lord, the journey God has taken me on and how He can bring them out of the darkness into light as well.

To some of you this might come as a surprise, because I HATE public speaking, I've been told I am good at it, and no one can ever tell when I am nervous, however I feel like I am going to throw up every time I have to speak on stage, whether it's in front of complete strangers or a group of my closest friends. However I think God is going to use this in big ways to stretch me beyond my wildest dreams.

So there you have it on "paper" I want to be a public speaker, I know crazy right?! WELL today I filmed a part of the DreamYear trailer at Dream Year weekend and for once I felt comfortable in front of the camera, I felt comfortable sharing my heart not only to a camera but to some complete strangers!

While the next few weeks are going to be a little crazy, I am going to continue to let God mold this dream in my heart, I am going to spend the rest of the weekend soaking up some amazing encouragement from some fellow dreamers, Ben and the rest of the Dream Year Crew and I am going to hold on tight as God takes me on a WILD RIDE!